My hope
Hello,
I just joined this forum as of Jan 18, 12:22am.
My name is Dawn, and I'm 18.
At 15 I was severely depressed.. and suicidal. Simply put- not right in the head. I had this crazy idea that all I needed was a guy. A man to love me intimately. Things would get better if I fell helplessly and obsessively in love.
It never happened,
I ended up being sent to rehabilitational centers until I was 16.
At 17, things began to smooth out.
I had a past, but I preferred a future.
I met Jimmie. Military, navy. Older. At the time he was 21, still is, about to turn 22 in March.
I fell miserably in love with him. He was exactly what I needed. Love, protection, security.
I love him, very much. He tolerates my mood swings.. emotional freak-outs.. and impassioned arguments.
He wants to understand, and tries earnestly. I love him for that.
Last month, (we've been together 10 months as of now) just before Christmas.. around Dec 15, I wished for a baby. His baby. I prayed to God, which I don't do much.
33 days and 3 pregnancy tests later- I am pregnant.
Happy
Scared
and confused.
Jimmie is happy.. he's got a wonderfully big heart and is very family oriented.
My parents.. know me well and have faith in me. Through my struggles I will be made strong.
I hope its a girl
if so, she will be Evie, short for Evelyn.
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