Could I be pregnant?
I am twenty years old and was in a committed relationship for several months. My boyfriend and I are no longer together, but towards the end of the relationship, I started feeling...well...weird.
Firstly, I began feeling sick with nausea. I was working a very stressful job as a sever, so I didn't really read THAT much into it. But one night at work, I was bringing a table some rolls and I began feeling very dizzy and actually fainted. I passed it off as fatigue and low blood sugar (I'm hypoglycemic) and was subsequently force-fed rolls and sweet tea by my coworkers and told to go home and go to bed by my boss.
I made it home okay, but I was so weak and shaky, my mother actually had to take care of me, like I was a little kid. My boyfriend was at band practice and I considered the incident negligible and when he came to my house, I didn't really feel the need to worry him with it.
But this dizziness became more severe in the passing days and so did my nausea. I thought I was coming down with a stomach virus, but my coworkers and my little sister (who happened to be my supervisor and a new mom) kept asking me if I was pregnant. To be honest, there WAS a chance I could be pregnant, as my boyfriend and I DID have unprotected sex around the time I ovulated. One day, I felt so sick and so tired, I just begged my boss to let me take a lunch break and left to go to my boyfriend's work and have lunch there. I thought maybe I was just overworked and thought that if I went to see my boyfriend and be around familiar, less intense people, I might settle down and feel better. But a turkey wrap and a coffee later, I'm back in my car and on my way to work feeling so nauseous, it's actually hard to drive. I had to call my sister and ask her to please just let me go home so I could rest.
It had started to click in my head that I might be pregnant. But it wasn't really time for my period yet and I figured it was too soon to test, so I really didn't have a choice but to sit and wait.
My boyfriend and I soon broke up and I was so distraught, the possibility of being pregnant was far from my mind. But not for long.
About four days after we broke up, I had some intense cramping and passed some kinda dark pinkish brown discharge. It didn't seem like a REAL period. Four days after that, on my 20th birthday, I was packing to go visit my dad, step-mom, and baby sister in Virginia, and I was overcome with the worst cramps I have felt in a very long time. I wasn't on my period. I was bent double with pain to the point I could hardly walk and the intensity of the pain grew. So, I told my mom what was going on and about the stuff I passed a couple of days before and about how my sister and coworkers kept telling me I was pregnant and she decides it's best to go to the ER just to be safe. After all, I had been under A LOT of stress and the pain was just so bad, SOMETHING had to be done. Especially since I was due to hop on a plane in just a few hours.
Needless to say, I missed my flight. At the ER, they were concerned that I might be having a miscarriage. They did a blood pregnancy test which came back negative, but there was some uncertainty about how far along I was pregnant (if I was), so the doctor ordered an ultrasound to be done the next day.
During the ultrasound, the technician who was a student couldn't see my uterus for anything. She said I obviously hadn't drank enough to push my bladder up and honestly...I have had ultrasounds many a time (I was a sickly child with a botched appendectomy and other health issues) and know how full my bladder has to be for these things. It couldn't have been fuller without me wetting myself!
Furthermore, she said my uterus was tilted...which is odd, because I've never had a tilted uterus before. Is that something that can happen randomly? Or what? I thought women were just born with one.
So, I left the experience rather annoyed, because I felt like I hadn't been given definitive results and figured that my period would surely come in the next couple of days and solve the matter. But it didn't.
That was July 30th. By October 1st, I had only bled two nonconsecutive days. I had taken a home pregnancy test sometime in late August to see if there were any new findings and there was the faintest hint of a line. I pretty much decided to wait and then take another one in a week or two to see if the line got any darker. That time, I got a friend who was definitely NOT pregnant to take a test out of the same pack with me. Again, I had the faintest hint of a line and she had nothing. I showed the test to her and my mother and they agreed it did seem to have just the very slightest whisper of a line.
I called my sister and told her about this and asked her what she thought. She said to make an appointment with my OBGYN and tell them about that and my lack of normal periods. She said if I was pregnant, there might be something wrong per my ER situation in July and then the two times a bled for a day. My own instincts agreed with her and I made the appointment the next day.
I had still be feeling nauseous and had began to notice some weight gain. I am not very much overweight but am on the upper end of the healthy range for my height (5'5") and had been trying to lose weight mainly to reduce my cup size (which was about a 32 F in July). I noticed that my arms were looking firmer and slimmer, but that my hips and stomach (and my stomach has always been very slim no matter how big the rest of me gets) seemed to be getting bigger. So were my breasts. By October, I was a 32 H. I had also gotten an increase in appetite and developed an intense yearning for dairy products.
So, I went to my OBGYN the first of October and told her what was going on. She decided it was best to do a blood pregnancy test just to make sure what was going on.
Meanwhile, I came clean to my ex. Before we broke up, he knew I thought I might be pregnant and when I told him, he was very concerned, but very supportive and was there for me. Apparently, everyone I know had been thinking I was. It wasn't just my own paranoia making me think they were looking at my belly -- they actually were!
It was a comfort in that while I was going crazy with wonder, everyone else was too.
The next day I got my results. They were negative and the doctor decided to put me on these hormone pills (can't remember the name) that were supposed to make my period come. But before I got my prescription filled, it actually came! It was lighter than usual and lasted about three days, but I was just happy to have some sort of biological proof I could see with my eyes that was a definitive answer. So, I pushed the pregnancy wonders out of my head.
Except...it's November now and I'm not really having regular periods. I had another three day light bleeding session, but it wasn't really at a regular time (and I have always been a very regular person). So, I have to wonder: are my hormones still messed up from all of that trouble I've been having the past several months, or is there something else going on?
Right now, if I were pregnant, I would be twenty weeks. And the thing is, I look twenty weeks pregnant. My stomach is huge while the rest of me hasn't gotten any bigger (and my arms are looking even slimmer, due to physical therapy I've been having). My back is killing me and when I look at my profile in the mirror, I truly look pregnant (and I know what a pregnant stomach looks like, having had two little sisters and a nephew).
So, I have to wonder: is there any possible way whatsoever I could be pregnant? I feel and look pregnant, but I also understand there are other things that might cause these feelings and symptoms. And as for the bulging pregnant-like belly, I am growing kind of concerned. The bottom line: I think I am pregnant or else I might have some sort of health problem. Needless to say, I'm getting a doctor's appointment. Especially after all of the cramping I've had today. But I would really like some insight and advice in the meantime. Has anyone else had a similar experience? Any words of wisdom?
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