And probably more....

So here I am 13 dpo. Still taking those darn FRER and IC hpt's bc I'm still in shock. When you've been in my shoes, with 2 miscarriages, 2 chems, 2 preemies and one full term, with months and even a year there of trying for all your babies, and a hubby with low sperm count, well...when it does finally happen you can't believe it!

OK, enough blabbering.

Today I had another beta blood test. Won't get the results back til Tuesday bc of the holiday. My first one was done at 10 dpo and was 17 and progesterone was 14. Dr said it all looked good considering how early it was.

Yesterday was the wake for my hubby's grandma. It was sad, but many people didn't seem too sad knowing she lived a long life and was in a better place. Hubby had to blab his mouth to just about everyone that I was pregnant. Even to one that I don't care for as she's nosy as heck.

I guess he's just excited. But I can't help but to worry. I feel like everything will be ok. But with my history, I wanted to wait to tell everyone until I reached my second trimester. Guess it's too late for that. But I'm ok with it. It doesn't bother me.

I told my sister the other day. She lives in IN. She's younger than I. I told her that I would be needing the crib back. It took her like one second to catch it. It was too funny. She couldn't believe it.

But at the same time, she had to ask me the stupidest of stupid questions which ticked me off. She asked if I got pregnant bc of mid thirties eggs dying crisis. Are you !@#$ kidding me??!!

She has always been the obnoxious annoying one. I told her no and that it was bc I wanted another one since are family is dwindling away (meaning relatives have moved far or passed on). I just felt like I wanted to be surrounded by family my whole life. I love my kids and I hope one day they give me tons of grandkids to spoil.

At that point she understood what I meant and actually thought of having more herself later on. She has 2 now. Our other sister has 4.

Anyways, other than getting annoyed by her uncalled for remark, I'm fine. Kinda moody from time to time, like I'm pms'ing. No more cramps, but headaches. If it's not one end it's the other.

Can't sleep too well. All of a sudden I'm waking up at like 5am and falling asleep more like 9pm instead of the 10:30-11pm time frame. Which is going to such when I start back at school next week.

I don't plan on telling the school until they can figure it out for themselves. If (and this is a small if since it is very possible with me and my history) I happen to go into premature labor and am put on bedrest again, I'll then take some paperwork from my dr requesting that they give me ALL online classes. Right now I take 2 online and 1 on campus as part of their policy for the program I am taking, Architectural Design. But since I am about a 1/3 of the way there, I'm not slowing down. I rather take them online while I'm bedridden.

I don't think they'll give me any trouble since I have good grades (all A's and B's yay! Not bad for someone that went back to school 16 years later!). And I do not plan to take any time off from school once the baby is born. MIL and hubby offered to help out as much as possible. Who knows though, that story may change when the time comes.

I just figure that by the time the baby comes I'll only have 1 year left, why delay it any longer?

When I started school I had no intentions of having another baby. But something hit me and we decided we wanted to.

Anyways, I'm going to get some rest. I've been cleaning house as we have guests coming this weekend for the holiday.

Hope everyone has a great 3 day weekend!

Johanna

Got my blood tests results from the dr on my hcg and progesterone.


So on 10dpo which was my first beta I was at 17 for my hcg and progesterone was 14.

Friday's results which I was 13 dpo show my beta at 107 and progesterone at 27. Dr says everything looks good. In 3 days my hcg more than doubled. I hope that doesn't mean twins.

Although they had me scheduled for the 16th which would make me 7 weeks and 3 days, he wanted to see me sooner since I am high risk with my miscarriages and preemies. So I'll be seeing him on the 6th at 10am which is a Saturday and will make me 6 weeks exactly (my ai was on a Saturday). He says if I want I can get another beta but I told him since I'm feeling fine and my count looks good, there's no need to for it.

He knows I like reassurance with my history. I told him I was feeling great other than the sore bb's and not so great sleep. So I actually get my ultrasound on the 6th and get to see the little bean. Very Happy Hubby can't wait. He's always calling from work asking how I'm feeling. Gotta love him.

So so far so good. Wink

Today I am 4 weeks and 3 days.

I don't think my sister knows how to be sensitive. First it was the whole midlife thirties crap, now she asks me if I'm worried about losing it.

I can understand why she asked, with my history and all. But that's just not what you say to someone whose high risk. From now on I'll think twice before taking her calls anymore.

I assured her I was fine and feeling great and the dr says everything seems fine so far. She was just like, "oh".

Other than that, I'm feeling great. Just tired and sore bb's. I can't sleep well, I wake up every single hour, literally and then am up by 5am for the rest of the day. Lovely.

Family can be so weird. You expect them to be nothing but supportive and then they go and say something odd like that. Maybe because you're close enough she lets down her guard and says whatever comes into her head. I've realized during my pregnancy that there are some things my own sister is sensitive about and won't respond to well (weight issues), so I have to be careful about how I phrase my own pregnancy weight gain or she'll get a little weird. It's her problem, and she probably wouldn't say that sort of thing to anybody other than a family member. Interesting, since I hear complete strangers will eventually say the meanest things about pregnancy (miscarriage stories, how you're as big as an elephant, etc.). Nobody's dared say a word to me yet, but I'm only at 19 weeks.

Anyway, congrats on the new little one!

Thanks moonlady.

My sister is strange I guess. Yeah, we've always been open with each other, but to me that's just out of line. I am 7 years older than her, so maybe she still in that immature phase. I don't know.

I told my grandma about it, her and I are really really close. She said just to ignore, maybe she didn't mean for it to come out that way. I know she was trying to make me feel better.

So my symptoms have been pretty much the same. Off and on nausea. Two nights in a row I was feeling really sick with hot flashes, like just before you vomit. But they haven't been back since and that was on Friday and Saturday night. I did wake up yesterday morning at 5 am feeling like I was going to get sick but it passed.

My bb's have been feeling weird. My left one has this pulsating pain like stabbing like off and on for 2 days now.

And yesterday I had the worst gas pain ever. It got so bad I couldn't walk. I didn't know if I should go to the dr or not I was so scared. But I took some gas x and a few hours later it finally passed. The last time that ever happened to me I really thought I would end up in the er, then too I couldn't walk. It's scary. You think your stomach

Today I am 5w4d. Saturday I have my ultrasound ob appt. I can't wait.

Had my first ultrasound on Friday.

The little bean was so hard to see at first with me being 5w6d.


Dr said heart most likely started beating in the last 24 hours and with it being so small, we couldn't get a count yet. But I do come back in 2 weeks since I am high risk. We also opted for the cvs testing since my last pregnancy ended with trisomy 5 years ago and me now being 34.

As far as me, I've been great. Just tired to the point of me feeling extremely lazy. I don't even want to do homework. I haven't even updated my blog. And the nausea kicks in when I get hungry. Hopefully I'll never get that dreaded morning sickness.

So all week I've been spotting off and on and only in the morning. Monday I panicked when I saw it and called my dr's office. My dr is out of office for the week so of course they had the midwife call me back.

They did a beta count test that day, in which I need to get the results on still.

She said since I was only spotting and no cramping, not to worry. But if it continued to call them back. Well, I requested an u/s bc I'm scared. I've miscarried twice before so I just need some reassurance, even though I had an appt on the 22nd it wasn't soon enough for me.

So they scheduled me for Friday with the other dr in office. The rest of that day there was nothing. But the next morning I noticed I was spotting a again. Both times it wasn't bright or a lot, but just streaks or tinges more or less.

So I called them again and they got me in that day for the u/s. She did an internal first and said everything looked fine. She continued with the u/s and we saw the baby's heart beating away. Not to mention the baby had tripled in size since my u/s on Friday. IN just 4 days it grew so much. She measured the baby and said I was right on time for growth.

She said that most likely it was caused by the last u/s I had. That my cervix was bruised and not to worry and no sex for a little while. I told her it was fine, we hadn't had any in nearly 2 weeks bc we were worried about miscarriage.


She also said that it will continue and not to worry since she did an internal and u/s on me. Yesterday there was nothing but morning sickness all day. Today I noticed I spotted again, but this time I'm not panicking.

I did have spotting with my first daughter when I was 10weeks. More than I have this time and she came out just fine.

So yes, morning sickness has really kicked in. The only thing I can really eat right now that doesn't make me gag is salad. So everyday I've been eating salads. Different salads too. Like the other night I had Chinese chicken salad. That was yummy and I learned I am really loving mandarins right now.

And orange juice in the morning doesn't make me sick. I have to drink ice water, otherwise room temp makes me sick.

I was really hoping this pregnancy would be like my sons and I never got the dreaded m/s.

Other than that, I'm doing fine. I've been resting as much as possible. The kids finish school tomorrow and I get about a week off before the next one starts summer school. And 2 weeks before they are all in summer school. With the way I'm feeling I'm wishing none of them had summer school since I'm the one that has to drive them all to school every day.

Im happy to hear everything is going well. I know how you feel when you see that red while wiping. I'll keep you and your baby in my prayers.

Thank you!

I got my beta count results back and my hcg is 40464. Really good number. Dr said that and my progesterone were great, it was 60.6.

It helps ease the stress for me that's for sure.

edited to change my progesterone from 16 to 60.

Today I seem to be feeling a bit better. It seems like I'm starving every 2 hours even if I ate what seemed like a lot. Not to mention the moment I wake up I'm really starving. That's about when the morning sickness kicks in. Since I'm not really ready to eat that early, I drink a slim fast and that really helps a lot. Then I have breakfast about an hour or so later.

I'm trying really hard to have 6 small meals a day, but I feel limited on what I can eat. Last night I discovered I can eat a subway chicken breast sandwich without feeling sick. Which is good bc I'm beginning to get sick of salads. So I had one for lunch today. For breakfast I had eggs after my little girls kindergarten graduation we went to ihop. I couldn't eat anything else without feeling sick. But I did pretty well.

I can't handle cooking anything for the family, so they are on their own for awhile here. I feel bad, but at the same time it's either I stay away and let them cook or I get sick. No one has complained...yet.

What I mostly feel though is this lump in my throat, like indigestion, or like I need to burp a really big burp. It also feels like I could throw up, so I don't even try to let it out. But tums have become a daily thing for me. I have the tropical fruit but can only have the white or yellow ones without gagging.

I can't wait to get past this part. But I'm also glad it's not as bad as it was with my last pregnancy (the one I miscarried) or as bad as my first (my oldest daughter). So I can't really complain much.

But, bc I don't feel well, I'm moody as can be. Just snappy I guess. Like pms.

I don't like being moody but then I don't realize it until it comes out of my mouth. I'm working on it.